Guess who’s back? I apologize for my leave of absence. These past few weeks have been a time of beautiful and exciting change, and I needed time to meditate and reflect. I had to give myself space for self-care before I could come back and share my message of hope and self-love with all of you. Now, I am ready to resume my role as a recovery blogger and share with you the major life change that has happened.
As you know, I have spent the last few years preparing to become a therapist, with the hope of treating adolescents and adults with eating disorders. While this dream of mine was promising, I started to have feelings of doubt. After many years of being in therapy myself, I grew scared of spending the rest of my life in a therapy office, even if that office was my own. Quite frankly, I was burnt out.
I began to explore other options, ultimately deciding to go back to my childhood dream of being a lawyer. With every thought of a future in law came a new wave of excitement. After many hours of reflection and prayer, I felt confident that I should pursue a law degree.
Where does my passion for mental health come into play in this new career path? Don’t worry, this passion has not faded at all. I’m still deciding the exact path I’d like to pursue, but I’m considering a career where I can fight for insurance benefits for those with eating disorders or gain more rights for mentally ill people. I have even considered representing sexual assault victims in court and striving to make the reporting process easier for such victims on college campuses. At this point, the world is my oyster.
I’m sharing my life update with you because I think there’s a lot to learn from my experience. So many of us are afraid of change– it’s scary, uncomfortable, and anxiety-producing. However, change is also a good thing– a very good thing. Change opens doors we didn’t even know existed. I was terrified to let go of my extremely diligently thought-out plan of becoming a therapist. I had intentions to open a private practice by the time I was thirty years old, and had big plans to make major differences in the treatment of eating disorders.
Now, I still have potential to make a lasting difference in the field of mental health. However, the level of impact I may or may not have is not the most important factor. The crucial part of making a change is following your heart and listening to your inner child. My inner child knew without a doubt that she wanted to be a lawyer. When I re-routed and went back to this potential career, I felt relief and a sense of peace I hadn’t felt in years. You can, too.
At the end of the day, my first obligations are to my own wellbeing. I can’t help other people if my needs are not being met too. Now, I can follow my dream, and in the process of chasing this dream, I can help lots of people along the way. I am at peace with myself. Change is a good thing.